As I was sitting here today, I was thinking about some of the things I prayed about during our infertility journey. I prayed that I would get pregnant without doctors, I prayed to know what God wanted us to do, I prayed for peace. Another thing I prayed while we were doing iui was ,"ok, God, I'll adopt if I can just get pregnant first." I think I knew then that we were supposed to adopt, but I was still holding on to my desires and not God's.
The day Chris and I started officially talking about adoption. I had a dream that night where I saw life going by really quickly as if it was being fast forwarded. I saw myself with an abnormally small baby. It was normal in my dream though. I heard a voice saying, "all it took was your willingness to adopt." Mydream was over at that point. I don't know if that means anything or if I was just feeling relieved, but I had such a sense of peace after that dream. I'm very grateful to have had that dream whether it was God speaking to me or not…
I remember making peace with adoption - and that was followed by KNOWING that adoption wasn't "plan B" but THE plan - God's plan. There is a child out there (even if he isn't born yet) needing you two to be his parents. Good luck! Christa
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